How Can I Ever Start Again?

Written By: Sierra Ducharme

I remember that day in the woods

You squeezed my hands under the evergreens

You said I’m like a Queen,

Powerful and pristine

The birds came in herds over the ferns

But their song was no match for your words

Now when I cross these trees, taking in the fresh breeze

I think to myself, how can I ever start again?

When my mother says your name

I find myself filled with shame

Not because I’m the one to blame

Because that ain’t the case

But because you once flooded me with grace

And now I trace around this place

Thinking and wondering, how can I ever start again?

There’s no one as intriguing

Who could offer life a whole new meaning

For when I saw your eyes gleaming

With a melted kind of love

I found myself floating like the clouds above

Even though you were sometimes demeaning

I sit here and think to myself, how can I ever start again?

Sometimes I wish you’d call

You’d retell that story from last fall

Where we danced amidst the golden leaves

And I’d say nothing at all

As I play with the hem of my sleeve

Feeling oh, so small like that day at the concert hall

The music you believe was what made you leave

But I think you’re only trying to deceive

Me into thinking and wondering, how can I ever start again?